But tonight I am struggling.
Not because I had a bad day, or a bad POTS appointment. In fact, I saw Dr. Grubb today, and my appointment went well, and I have to say that Dr. Grubb truly is an incredible man.
But sometimes life smacks you in the face and it is overwhelming. And exhausting. And you feel vulnerable and defeated.
I know it is temporary. I know I will regain perspective. I am strong and I am tough. Tomorrow will be better. There are good times around the bend....Great times around the bend.
But every once in a while, I believe that it is okay to be human and admit that you are having a hard time. Tonight is one of those nights.
Brad always plays me this song...
Sometimes "the roller coaster's gotta to roll to the bottom, if you want to climb to the top again."
Katie...I love you, I love you!!!
ReplyDeleteKatie, yes it is OK to admit that are having a hard time or having "human emotions." I have to tell myself this over and over again.
ReplyDeleteI often feel like I don't have a right to be upset, or angry or petty or just plain bitchy about what is going on in my life because there are people who have it harder than me and they remain positive.
But then I remember what my friend Lynn says about experiencing the full range of human emotions: it's like taking a dump. If you don't do it regularly it becomes difficult and painful. So experience your emotions as they come, just find safe and healthy ways to express and deal with those emotions we deem "inappropriate" like anger and sadness.
If we release our strong emotions as they come up(like pooping), they pass easily, don't cause us undue pain and don't have to stink up the joint!
This too will pass, don't beat yourself up for being human!